So much is up related to Mom's passing. I got a call from a reporter with the Dallas Morning News who is doing a small piece on Mom's life. He had talked to Bill and Bill had referred him to Pam and me. The questions he asked about Mom and my childhood put me in touch with even more memories, feelings and appreciation. In writing the memorials and tribute for her I have begun to step through my reactions.
Posted by apopheniac at August 22, 2004 04:04 PMDealing with unresolved parental issues is tough. Interesting that we are doing this at the same time. She loved you so much you know.
When we got to a point that we talked about all that stuff it came out. She would show me letters you had written, tell me happy memories and all around let me come to a place in my life where I understood more about you. I think we can choose the feelings that we hang on to and the way that we remember those we love. Right now I am at a point where I choose to remember the man who used positive light and energy to make my pain go away. The man who looked at me with such pride in the pictures that I have seen and the fact that I discover more and more of this man in myself every day. And I am coming to understand that this is a very good thing.
I guess the best that I can wish for you during this time when you are getting in touch with old pain and sadness is to let you know that you are not alone in the process and that somehow I think something magical can come from this all.
I have decided that I am going to say something at the funeral. I will let my heart choose the words and then I will sing. " Don't be afraid, close your eyes, lay it all down... don't you cry. Can't you see I'm going.. where I can see the sunrise.. I've been talking to my angel, and she says that it's allright.- Melissa Ethridge.